The Christmas tornado has come and gone at our house. I think we all had fun. The food was good and the gifts were thoughtful, so it can’t have been too bad! I walked away feeling very spoiled and loved on.
Now it’s nearly New Years. I kind of have a love hate thing with this holiday. On the one hand the planner in me loves to make *new* plans and goals. On the other hand sometimes reflecting back on all that has happened (or not been accomplished) in the past year can be a really mixed bag. I think over all this year has been one of successes and growth, but there’s always some garbage mixed in isn’t there? I suppose that’s life though and I am not doing myself any favors by wishing it to be different.
So let’s talk about some goals and hopes for the new year! I thought I’d make a little list for myself (see? planner) but try not to make it too resolution-y because that’s just too much pressure!!
I’ll start with the no brainers:
I’d like to be stricter with our budget and stay on track as much as possible. This is hard for me because I think I have gotten into this mindset where if I don’t do something RIGHT NOW I may never get to. This is probably brought on partially from growing up without a lot of money and partially due to all the job junk we’ve experienced during this whole recession thing. I think I am always worried about the money going away. But you know? I’ve also learned that we will manage, no matter what. So maybe I’ll tack on “letting go and trusting God with my finances” to my budgeting plans. Because nothing is guaranteed, so why freak out about it? Easier said than done.
Figuring out a fitness plan that actually works for me. I’m just plain not active enough more so than I am worried about actual weight loss. So figuring out how to move around more consistently in a way that works for both of us. T has an active job but me not so much.
Keep my house tidy. It doesn’t have to be spotless (repeat to self, it does not have to be spotless) but picked up would be a great improvement and keep the weekends from being all day chore days. Where’s the fun in that?
Cook at home more. We do cook at home quite a bit, but I have a weakness for having food delivered when it’s been an especially long day/week. And I am bad about wanting to eat out on the weekends. It just seems like more fun at the time. But it is a budget suck and my body is always like whhhhy did you eat that once Monday rolls around. My body is kind of a whiner like that, it likes routine as much as my brain does… If that makes any sense…
Be a better wife. I don’t know if I would say I am a bad wife or anything but let’s be honest. I can be a bit self-involved. Part of this is because I tend to always think I am right and have the best plan. This is only sometimes actually true haha. So I would like to be a more caring, compassionate partner. Work on listening better and making a conscious effort to do more things that T wants to do. Not just what I want to do or think is best.
Work on my relationships. Meaning family and friends. It’s amazing how hard that can seem. Especially to my introverted self. But my relationships have been kind of whack this year. So there’s a lot of mulling and sorting out to do there. Figuring out who to reach out to and what to let go of. It’s hard! And it got very very off course this year in a lot of ways. I have a tendency to drop and walk away if a relationship is hurting too much, sometimes that’s the right choice and then there are others where I wonder if I should have fought a little harder. And could those ever be restored? Should they be? Does the other person want it to be? These are the questions that can drive you crazy. So I’ll try to sum it up by saying I want to be a better friend, daughter, all around family member (whatever that encompasses, sister, in-laws what have you).
In conjunction with the above: I want to have more people over. This is another tough one for me. Two parts make it tough – actually putting myself out there to invite someone. And trying not to act like a psycho about cleaning and cooking before said person arrives. I’m not great at either. I stress out about it a lot. A lot. But that doesn’t make our home any warmer or more hospitable. So I need to push myself harder to make connections with people and actually invite them into my home.
I would like to travel more. T and I have talked about some big plans for a long time. But we’ve never actually sat down and tried to put it into action. It’s always been more of “wouldn’t it be fun to do ___ some day??” so maybe this year with be the “some day” we actually make it happen. This kind of ties into budget but I will leave it in its own category
Finish (or heck… START) some house projects. I really like our house, but it has its things that need updating or repairs. I like to spend a lot of time talking about what those things are, so now it’s time to try to make it happen. We got off to a good start this weekend by finally fixing/updating the shower fixtures in both bathrooms. They had been dripping and crappy for a long time so this is progress!! Partially inspired by the fact the a couple of out-of-town friends will be coming for visits in the next couple of months but still… Progress.
I think I will think on my goals some more and maybe do a follow-up post… I’m running out of creative juices at the moment.
Happy New Year!!